An open letter to my wife on our Anniversary. We are separated and it appears to be headed for divorce. It is an awkward day, and this is a letter I am writing to her to express my feelings on this day.
Dear Nicole,
We’ve been separated for almost two months now and it seems the path ahead of us is defined - where we are going, what we are doing.
Today would be our big day. Five years married. Alot of good things have happened in our life together, not the least was the birth of our beautiful, “full of energy” son, Devin. He just turned two and I was bummed when I missed his two year birthday party when I was in Pascagoula. I’m sure he was excited as ever. I wish I could have seen his face when he got his truck like “pop-pops”.
I want you to know how very sorry I am for the way our life together has turned out. Don’t let the hardness of my demeanor fool you. Everyday I think about you, and the farther along our separate roads we get, the more I long for the “old days”. We have not always been happy together, but there is a “wholeness” that has been missing since you’re gone.
I have many things in my life that I need to work on before I feel like I can love someone. I have not been a good husband… not even a mediocre one. It should be no surprise to me that we are where we are today. You deserve so much.
Nicole, you are a beautiful person - in your heart and soul and your physical self. You don’t give yourself enough credit. I saw you the other day and sat back stunned wondering what the hell I had done in allowing us to get to this point.
I still love you. I always have. I don’t know how to express that to you - or anyone for that matter. I could blame it on many things, but I won’t. I need to find out how to love. I regret that I won’t be able to demonstrate that to you.
I’m sitting here in Border’s working on the book and all I have is a cup of coffee. So I lift this coffee to you and wish you happiness and peace; love and joy. Thank you for the time we have had together. You have changed me, even if you don’t think that you have. I love you - even now. Thank you for five years.
Love,
Aaron
{ 20 comments }
Mike 10.07.05 at 4:21 pm
Aaron - I’m not one to be giving on how to keep a marriage together after being married three times, but there’s something I’ve learned over the years and that is to grab onto something, someone you love and work it out. Too many couples stay together for the children, which is usually not good. If there is any chance things can work out, you or the both of you can grow and remain together believe me it would be worth it. I regret not being the “good” husband in my first marriage and I now know it was all due to being immature. It sounds like you really love Nicole so take a second, third, forth look at what is really important in your life before letting go…
Mike 10.07.05 at 5:21 pm
Aaron - I’m not one to be giving on how to keep a marriage together after being married three times, but there’s something I’ve learned over the years and that is to grab onto something, someone you love and work it out. Too many couples stay together for the children, which is usually not good. If there is any chance things can work out, you or the both of you can grow and remain together believe me it would be worth it. I regret not being the “good” husband in my first marriage and I now know it was all due to being immature. It sounds like you really love Nicole so take a second, third, forth look at what is really important in your life before letting go…
Mike 10.07.05 at 5:21 pm
Aaron - I’m not one to be giving on how to keep a marriage together after being married three times, but there’s something I’ve learned over the years and that is to grab onto something, someone you love and work it out. Too many couples stay together for the children, which is usually not good. If there is any chance things can work out, you or the both of you can grow and remain together believe me it would be worth it. I regret not being the “good” husband in my first marriage and I now know it was all due to being immature. It sounds like you really love Nicole so take a second, third, forth look at what is really important in your life before letting go…
Mike 10.07.05 at 5:21 pm
Aaron - I’m not one to be giving on how to keep a marriage together after being married three times, but there’s something I’ve learned over the years and that is to grab onto something, someone you love and work it out. Too many couples stay together for the children, which is usually not good. If there is any chance things can work out, you or the both of you can grow and remain together believe me it would be worth it. I regret not being the “good” husband in my first marriage and I now know it was all due to being immature. It sounds like you really love Nicole so take a second, third, forth look at what is really important in your life before letting go…
Mike 10.07.05 at 5:21 pm
Aaron - I’m not one to be giving on how to keep a marriage together after being married three times, but there’s something I’ve learned over the years and that is to grab onto something, someone you love and work it out. Too many couples stay together for the children, which is usually not good. If there is any chance things can work out, you or the both of you can grow and remain together believe me it would be worth it. I regret not being the “good” husband in my first marriage and I now know it was all due to being immature. It sounds like you really love Nicole so take a second, third, forth look at what is really important in your life before letting go…
Bill 10.08.05 at 5:07 pm
Aaron,
I don’t know you, but I also agree with Mike that, if you can, you should do everything possible to save your marriage. Devin needs his daddy, and Nicole needs you to show her that you will cross any desert, swim any ocean for her. All is not lost!
I hope I’m not coming across too strong. I’m blessed to have been married to my lovely wife for seventeen years. Can’t imagine life without her.
This can be redeemed. It’s your move. It’s worth it.
God’s blessings on you on your anniversary
Bill
Bill 10.08.05 at 6:07 pm
Aaron,
I don’t know you, but I also agree with Mike that, if you can, you should do everything possible to save your marriage. Devin needs his daddy, and Nicole needs you to show her that you will cross any desert, swim any ocean for her. All is not lost!
I hope I’m not coming across too strong. I’m blessed to have been married to my lovely wife for seventeen years. Can’t imagine life without her.
This can be redeemed. It’s your move. It’s worth it.
God’s blessings on you on your anniversary
Bill
Bill 10.08.05 at 6:07 pm
Aaron,
I don’t know you, but I also agree with Mike that, if you can, you should do everything possible to save your marriage. Devin needs his daddy, and Nicole needs you to show her that you will cross any desert, swim any ocean for her. All is not lost!
I hope I’m not coming across too strong. I’m blessed to have been married to my lovely wife for seventeen years. Can’t imagine life without her.
This can be redeemed. It’s your move. It’s worth it.
God’s blessings on you on your anniversary
Bill
Bill 10.08.05 at 6:07 pm
Aaron,
I don’t know you, but I also agree with Mike that, if you can, you should do everything possible to save your marriage. Devin needs his daddy, and Nicole needs you to show her that you will cross any desert, swim any ocean for her. All is not lost!
I hope I’m not coming across too strong. I’m blessed to have been married to my lovely wife for seventeen years. Can’t imagine life without her.
This can be redeemed. It’s your move. It’s worth it.
God’s blessings on you on your anniversary
Bill
Bill 10.08.05 at 6:07 pm
Aaron,
I don’t know you, but I also agree with Mike that, if you can, you should do everything possible to save your marriage. Devin needs his daddy, and Nicole needs you to show her that you will cross any desert, swim any ocean for her. All is not lost!
I hope I’m not coming across too strong. I’m blessed to have been married to my lovely wife for seventeen years. Can’t imagine life without her.
This can be redeemed. It’s your move. It’s worth it.
God’s blessings on you on your anniversary
Bill
Stacie 10.11.05 at 9:49 am
I had tears in my eyes when I read this. I hope that everything works out for the best. Sometimes I wonder if it’s not whether or not you can be with someone, but can you be without them.
Stacie 10.11.05 at 10:49 am
I had tears in my eyes when I read this. I hope that everything works out for the best. Sometimes I wonder if it’s not whether or not you can be with someone, but can you be without them.
Stacie 10.11.05 at 10:49 am
I had tears in my eyes when I read this. I hope that everything works out for the best. Sometimes I wonder if it’s not whether or not you can be with someone, but can you be without them.
Stacie 10.11.05 at 10:49 am
I had tears in my eyes when I read this. I hope that everything works out for the best. Sometimes I wonder if it’s not whether or not you can be with someone, but can you be without them.
Stacie 10.11.05 at 10:49 am
I had tears in my eyes when I read this. I hope that everything works out for the best. Sometimes I wonder if it’s not whether or not you can be with someone, but can you be without them.
Matthew R. Miller 10.11.05 at 3:50 pm
From my personal experience with my parents, I must agree. Devin needs his parents together and happy. I hope to see more posts like you recent one about putting your wedding band back on. I applaud you for putting something so honest and raw to the public, it shows what type of man you are. Stay strong.
Matthew R. Miller 10.11.05 at 4:50 pm
From my personal experience with my parents, I must agree. Devin needs his parents together and happy. I hope to see more posts like you recent one about putting your wedding band back on. I applaud you for putting something so honest and raw to the public, it shows what type of man you are. Stay strong.
Matthew R. Miller 10.11.05 at 4:50 pm
From my personal experience with my parents, I must agree. Devin needs his parents together and happy. I hope to see more posts like you recent one about putting your wedding band back on. I applaud you for putting something so honest and raw to the public, it shows what type of man you are. Stay strong.
Matthew R. Miller 10.11.05 at 4:50 pm
From my personal experience with my parents, I must agree. Devin needs his parents together and happy. I hope to see more posts like you recent one about putting your wedding band back on. I applaud you for putting something so honest and raw to the public, it shows what type of man you are. Stay strong.
Matthew R. Miller 10.11.05 at 4:50 pm
From my personal experience with my parents, I must agree. Devin needs his parents together and happy. I hope to see more posts like you recent one about putting your wedding band back on. I applaud you for putting something so honest and raw to the public, it shows what type of man you are. Stay strong.
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